What if I Died Today?

What if I died today?

Have I made a foot mark enough to make an impression?
Will my eulogy be made from someone else's quotes? Einstein or Coehlo?
Will my body be carbon dusts or worm feeds? Or will I make the choice?
Shall I be forgiven? Or shall I easily be forgotten?
Will my smiles be remembered after a year or two?
Or will I be remembered in my children's traits?
Will my children learn from me in my letters? in blogs? in social videos?
In friends' recollection with a bit of imagination?
Or in programs and games, easily stored as bytes of data?
Will they hate me for not being there in their puberty?
Will my best friend name his dog after me as a last piece of humor?

Shall I die trying to live, or will I live trying to die?
Maybe I won't know. Maybe it doesn't matter at all.

yes, maybe.

AN EARLY MORNING GOOD NEWS

It's great how google search result would brighten my early morning. It's been almost a week since we've been fruitlessly finding news about my friend Tristan who is working in Haiti. I never knew that my googling his name and Haiti today would give me great news. His name appeared on the accounted safe OFWs there:

http://www.manilatimes.net/index.php/component/content/article/42-rokstories/9925-78-more-pinoys-accounted-for-in-haiti

http://us.asiancorrespondent.com/tonyo-cruz-blog/list-of-65-filipinos-declared-safe-in-haiti

The news was just posted a few hours earlier. I hope his family received the good news already :)

The Distant Cry

If my life, be a calamity,
then I would be the earthquake.
I would shutter the ground into pieces,
pull mountains to crumble beneath my feet,
reduce boulders into dusts,
and make the waves of the ocean chaotic with fury

I will make my presence be felt from afar.
I will cause havoc and fear to all terrestrial beings.
I will be the ending rumbling voice that will resonate long before silence.

And as mighty as I've risen from below, as horrid as my death will be.
Not bursting out from the solid soil.
But forever trapped into my own calamity.
As death decomposes to fragments
of bones and ashes and no more.